-here-

Nobody looks at you

how does that make you feel

how does that make them feel

 

Is it true that the success

that surrounds you is

because you are there

 

Or because you have spoken

 

Do you believe that a

silent corner would do you no harm

-see your ‘strong’ soul – fade away into

the darkness which was

created by your world

in which you live in

 

Is it flowers and sunshine

or dullness and rain

 

It can never be black or white

because you leave

yourself no choice

 

-in what you believe

-I ask this only to you -

I found what I discovered

and I discovered what I thought

 

Behind your eyes I pictured

what the mirrors can not see

within you heart bleeds a mistery

of the potential to be free

 

But I was truthful

and thought only this:

 

My world will bare its purity

to the darkness of your dreams

 

So then why – you ask

- can I never again

let you in…

-too high-

Is it time you feel

Or tired you felt

Are these words so real

Or seem unfairly dealt

Are you rich with love

And part of others

Can you think of life

Or does your mind now wonder

To that unsure place

With that chill filled air

Let me hold your hand

And sit with you there

Cause the bodies will warm

And you will feel less cold

Your days will seem lighter

Till your time will see old…

Sink in the light

of bystanders

 

Forgive all the laughter

that surrounds

 

It’s me they’re looking for

and it’s time they see

 

The wet forces of ghost like

creatures

 

The heavy shields of eternal

searching

 

Does the fear stand aside

and love those who can’t

 

I wait to see your space

empty for the while

 

Fitting to the sounds

of broken silence

 

The sounds of emptiness

 

The shame of the leaves

that lie there still

 

The colours that surround

a previously burdened hill

 

Your shadows are now stark

Sounds of silence through the grey

 

I’ll stay here waiting

side by side

until you let me feel

Was there a town

or a garden

that made it clear

 

Was there that

force you spoke of

that brought you near

 

Is it the breeze that

held you

or my hands that

let you go

 

Forever in the darkness

I’ll have you never know

Under the willow I hang my head

My thoughts betray me

Unless you said

Those years were under

Only my skies

Forever I wonder

What’s behind those eyes

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Do you stop to wonder what
life would be like if you
listened to yourself
once in a while.

If you actually took yourself seriously

Do you ever wonder if you
saw yourself through someone
else’s eyes, that you would see more

Is it ever hard to think about
your thoughts, every single one,
and appreciate where they come from
and take the time to understand
what they truly mean

Do you ever smile at strangers
walking by or in the car beside you
or in the lift, do you ever smile
more when they smile back

Do you ever take simple credit
for how that can change your
world and theirs

Do you ever sit and think
where you might be
if you stayed with that person
or took that job

Do you ever appreciate your
surroundings, that wide open space,
a clearing as far as you can see

Do the people around you wish
for nothing more than the
person you have given them

And can you see this when you need to the most

Is it ever easy for you
to forget the things you
remember to protect yourself

Or do you sometimes forget
to remember to protect yourself

Do your concerns for others
prey on your own thoughts

Can you breathe when there
is nothing else

Will they breathe when they
see you

Does your heart and your soul
grow with every person you meet

Do you allow your mind to be peaceful

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here I am lying still

holding my eyes open

as they try to fall

 

fall to make me feel

or to make me dream

to make me wonder

am I still me

 

the floor is cold

my clothes are damp

don’t look at me

 

are you frowning

it doesn’t suit you

neither does me

 

there I go

from here on now

I am staying in the comfort

of where I cannot see

What I dream -

If I were a survivor
I would fall into the ocean
fall into the ocean
fall into the ocean

If I were a survivor
would you hear my screams
screaming through the water
floating through the ocean

I would float down to the river
till a fork in the river
reminds me of the ocean
floating through the ocean

I lie here on the river
the bed of my desires
thinking like the ocean
deciding like the river

what will come of me
if I stay
Lying on the river
tired from the ocean

will they ever hear my cries
sounding down the river
stopping at the ocean

there’s a man
he’s in the distance
listening to the river
far from the ocean

I lay there with no fight
taken with the river
stripped by the ocean

no voice will make me heard
with my hands draped in the water
sends a sound, a splashing bird

If I were a survivor
my time it would be now
instead I lie here resting
listening to the ocean

A man was in the distance
but the darkness made me blind
my heart is in the ocean

I’ll soar high above the clouds
to see what I can find
my body in the river

Maybe one day this will remind
people of my living
until I felt the ocean
until I left the ocean

A smile on my face
listening to the heartbeat
the heartbeat of the river
the numbness of the ocean

It makes me think again
if I were a survivor
would I have ever survived
…..this much.

I was present
I was there

and my thoughts
they filled the air

to me they sound the same
I hear them all the time

like dark clouds above me
I convince myself I’m fine

until this very moment
what comes strong and in waves

is making me feel sadness
while helping me to stay

stay true to who I am
and honour my beliefs

but helping those around me
to allow me to just breath